Post script: Just like me...

I've been thinking about what I wrote and 3 things came to mind.

1. I hope I didn't sound all high and mighty waxing all poetic about being the best parents that we can be.

2. I didn't write it because that's how I am with my kids, I was writing about how I want to be with my kids.

3.How in the hell do we do this job, without question the hardest one there is?

Yesterday, I was not successful in reaching that goal. I completely lost it with my son in the morning. Now to be fair, he was pushing my buttons (really hard, like leaning on a car horn hard) and I wanted to stay in "the happy place" but I could literally feel my blood boiling. BAM!! I'm yelling, he's upset and the day is shot, all this before 8:00am. Sometimes I feel completely ill equipped for the challenges of parenting. These little buggers show up with no instructions and every time you think you've got them figured out, they change or we change or something changes. I wish there was a go to place for all the right answers, but I know there is not, you just have to jump in feet first and learn from trial and error. Its just worrisome when you're in the error zone, you don't want to mess them up for life. After all thanks to Freud I know that 20 years from now, when they're stretched out on some therapist couch talking about being unable to commit or some other crisis, they will realize that everything is all my fault. Anyway, tomorrow is another day and we all get the chance to start over. What do you do with your kids? How do you handle the challenges?

Maybe I will have another opinion to share soon.....Be well.

Some more extra stuff about me:
I have a few girl crushes, nothing crazy, just people that I think are pretty kool. I love that Alicia Keys is the total package and I can listen to her music with my kids in earshot. Her new video for "Teenage Love Affair" takes me back to my college days. I'm digging how bad ass Rihanna is, daring to be different. I just read that she cut her hair way back when she first came out and the record cloning factory (company) made her dye it that pop star, black girl blonde, but this time around she simply refused. I love Majora Carter, founder of Sustainable South Bronx. She is taking environmental justice to the next level; Al Gore is checking for her. Visit her org's site at www.ssbx.org. My favorite album right know is Ledisi - Lost and Found. She is awesome. Oh yeah, I also love the word of the day from dictionary.com.